ICU

it was never
a shock
i'll give you that
i was lucky
with the expectations
i had
None

hopelessness
is sometimes
a buffer
it keeps you
from being let down

i sat there
wishing opposite
wishes
of all the others
she can go
it's okay with me
i'm ready to breakdown
now
this way of life
is not for me
any longer
i've done my time
paid my price
for what crime
i'm unsure
but reformed
i am
all the same

~ December, 2005