moments

it’s strange to exist in a moment
that you know will change
the course of your life
irrevocably and without
guidance of your own

usually these moments
blindside you so swiftly
you don’t see them coming
nor do you feel the effects
until days later
like a dull ache in your back
in your heart
in your head

sometimes you don’t know
the moment was even significant
until you feel the loss of it
months down the road

you mourn for a time
you didn’t know you were
ever going to miss

these are the times that shape us
but the growing pains
are quick and sharp